Happy birthday Nathan

Hey my Nathan! I just wanted to tell you happy birthday! And that I love you and miss you so much. You're my little best friend, and you're always gonna be. I love you so much, bud. I'm sorry I didn't get to see you while I was home this time, and I'm sorry it's been so long since I've seen you. I think last time was when I was home for Thanksgiving break, which was a longggg time ago. But! I can't believe you're 5!! Nathan, you were just barely two when I met you. You were an adorable little kid who wanted to be my best friend just because I was wear a SpongeBob t-shirt. I remember when you were about two-and-a-half, and you had just mastered the ABC's song, and you sang it for me again and again and again because you were just so proud of yourself. I was proud of you too, bud. And I remember teaching you and Candis and TT "Ring Around The Rosie." You learned it so fast! And you loved doing it, especially the "all fall DOWN!" part. And then last year, when you went through a period of time where you only wanted to be called "Nay." You're growing up fast, kiddo. You're gonna be in kindergarten in September! You know how crazy that is? That the little boy I met when he was just barely two is old enough to be in kindergarten? It's so crazy!

I hope today is great for you! :)

And hey, I'll try to come see you next time I'm home, ok? I promise I'll try, and you know I can't break a promise to you.

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