I've been sick since Thursday night. I don't know what it is, I just feel like I'm going to throw up. Mom keeps telling me I need to eat, and I know I need to, and I have been eating... but every time I eat something, like 5 minutes later I feel like I'm 2 seconds away from throwing up. Then yesterday, I had a wicked bad headache. Like I couldn't even focus on anything; my head hurt SO bad, like it felt like right behind my eyes, and everything was blurry and my eyes like couldn't keep anything in focus. And every little sound hurt so bad and just made me want to scream. Or something. Mom said it was a migraine. She said I used to get them all the time when I was a kid, but I don't remember my head ever hurting that bad before. So I went to sleep early, around 9:30 and then woke up around 8:30ish this morning. I felt normal when I woke up, but then I ate breakfast (a piece of bread and a glass of water, which is what my mom said to have since I wasn't feeling good the day before), and after breakfast I was almost throwing up again. It's gotta be some stomach bug or something. It sucks. I just want to feel better. So I'm just sitting here right now, sipping mint flavored tea because I heard that's good for an upset stomach.
I really hope I'm feeling better by Wednesday. That's the Taylor Swift concert, and I'm not missing it. Even if I'm still not feeling 100%, I'm going. And I'm going to have a good time. And it's going to be the best day of my life. I know some people who go to her concerts want to get noticed by her and they want to meet her and they want to get picked for the T-Party and everything, but if you want my real honest truth - yeah any of that would be great, but I just want to see her. To see her in concert. That's my dream. That's been my dream since I first heard her music, since I first saw her, since I first got one of her CDs. And seeing her on June 22nd, Wednesday, that's going to be a dream come true for me. Would I love to meet her? Yes. Would it be amazing to get picked for the T-Party? Of course. But I'll be happy without that too. I'll be so happy just to see her. I don't know if any other fans feel that way, but that's how I feel.
I'm going to dad's on the 30th, and I'll be there until July 11th. It'll be good to get away from New York for a bit.
I'm going to miss Nathan and Trisha so freaking much when I go off to college in the fall. I mean, I knew I was going to miss them... but it hit me the other day how much I'm really truly going to miss those kids. They're my whole entire world. They're my little adventurers and monster hunters and they're the best kids in the whole universe. Trisha is gonna be 3 at the end of August. Her birthday is the same day that I move into the dorm at school. They're going to have her party before I go, which I think is so so sooo sweet of them to do. I'm giving her a Rainbow Bear for her birthday. I have one, and she loves it. She thinks it's about the coolest thing in the world, so I'm giving her one. She went down the big slide at the park all by herself for the first time not that long ago. I was (and am) so proud of her for doing it. And then, last time we were at the park, she climbed up the like chain thingy that you can climb up on the playground (sorry, I have no idea how to describe it or what it's called) by herself. I mean, I stood right behind her so I could catch her if she fell, but she didn't fall. She did it. By herself. I love that she's finally starting to do things like that.
I feel like this entry is getting long, so I'll stop here.